Anyone else been in my shoes?

We have done everything in our power to save this precious little baby. We went as far as being referred to a fetal surgeon, however the baby’s diagnosis is fatal and there is nothing left the doctors can do.

Today I am 19w 4d. I will be 20w 3d when I have the D&E. I feel a peace knowing this baby won’t have to suffer much long, but I am doing my best to prepare for how I will be after it mentally and emotionally.

We wanted (and still want) this baby so badly. I miscarried early on in March of this year so this fetal anomaly is sort of salt in the wound. We do have a happy and healthy 2 year old and I do my best to focus on how grateful we need to be.

I am anticipating that my milk will likely come in due to how far along I will be. I know that will be an emotional time. I am doing research this week to find out what I can do to donate if I do have a decent supply. I believe it will be very healing to know that we can honor our sweet baby boy with breastmilk donation.

I am so thankful that my friends and family (despite being fairly conservative) have all been very supportive.