Me and my boyfriend of 1 year have sex regularly but whenever we do it's always him who has that sexual release and I let him but whenever I bring up that I want to have that sexual release as well it's always a bother or a chore, or he tells me that I need to hurry up and cum because he's about to. I'm starting to feel stressed about it because I feel like a POS just because it takes me longer than him to cum and I feel rushed and then I start to get out of the mood and it's always my fault because whenever I want to and I can't I start to not feel in the mood anymore for sex because I feel rushed or I feel like I shouldn't be able to cum too because "it takes too long" or "you always decide to start when I'm about to cum". And I feel embarrassed to use the vibrator before or after and when I tried to use it during sex he gets.. I don't even know honestly, frustrated? Or embarrassed? I don't know. He just gets defensive if I bring up the vibrator just because it kind of has a dick look to it but it's a vibrator it's not going in me or anything just ON me, he started to throw a fit about it so I put it down and let him do his thing. I just, I'm starting to feel less into sex because I can't have the same type of sexual release that he gets too and I get super frustrated. I feel overwhelmed, like I want to cry? But I can't. I don't know how to approach the situation right because it either ends up in a fight and him not caring and saying just "sorry" and moving on or he just doesn't give a shit.