so there is this girl that i’ve been best friends with for like the longest time. i’ve been trying to figure out my sexuality for a while, and i’ve decided to unlabel myself so i can love whoever i want without a label.

anyway so sometimes i want to be with her like sexually and emotionally, like i want her all to myself. but sometimes i think i’m sending the wrong message to her. i’ve never kissed anyone or anything so being intimate with someone makes me so nervous. i know she’s into me, but i get so nervous that i’m not even attracted to her, i’m just attracted to the attention it gives me. i’m just so confused at this point.

like there are points where i can see myself kissing her and having sex with her, but then the next minute my heart starts racing like i’m doing something wrong by picturing it. anyway... so i’m scared and i don’t want to hurt her but i don’t want to just drop her as my friend bc she makes me so happy and vice versa. any advice would be so insanely appreciated.