Was I raped my husband said it was my fault

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I was 13 years i had this cousin that was like my role model she wanted to ditch with her boyfriend and she gave me the number to this guy I had been talking to him for a month on the phone and I was so stupid i thought I could trust him I called him that day my cousin was ditching from school mind you i had never ditched school before he said we were going to smoke weed together I also had never smoked weed I found it easy to go with him this stranger I figured my cousin would do it all the time why not go on this adventure, we met up and he took me in a bike he drove and drove until I had no idea where I was we went to his apartment, he was older maybe in his late 20's or 30's we were smoking weed and then he wanted to kiss me I told him no I just want to hangout he said you thought this weed was for free you have to pay for it and then laughed sarcastically i froze and my mind started racing I thought how stupid can I be this man is a complete stranger how will I get away where would i go I was scared he would beat me or worst kill me so I let him touch me I was crying he wouldnt stop, he pulled down my pants I held my underwear I told him I was a virgin to please leave me alone I dont want to do this I remember I was on my period too. I pushed him off me and he put his whole weight on me and I couldnt move he forced my underwear off and raped me 😞😢