Feeling isolated and alone

I crave comfort and warmth. All the details and memories from my rape haunt me. It keeps me up at night and it’s constantly playing in my head and causing anxiety attacks, flashbacks and nightmares. I feel like it’d be a huge weight off my shoulders to confide in someone the details, however obviously that’s very tough for many reasons.

It’s difficult to say face to face to someone. Now journaling it definitely helps a bit but idk, I feel like I need to tell someone other than just myself. Maybe I’ll feel less alone and isolated. I feel like I want people to understand my pain. I don’t mean *feel my pain because I wouldn’t want anyone else to experience this agony, I just want someone to understand me and what I’m going through because I feel so alone and isolated in my pain.