We never shouldve married...

2yrs ago I married a man ive been in a relationship with for now almost 5 years.

He WAS good w kids, funny an sweet.

I regret not leaving him sooner...

I should've made him leave the 1st time he yelled at my 2yr old son.

He was always a bad compulsive liar.

I wasn't able to stand on my own two feet because I don't have a good support system. My family is shit. So he got jobs that thankfully was 8-12hr shifts w the chance of more so he was gone alot When he would even go to work... He's lazy... But anyway. When i got w him I'd had a tramatic past so I never really knew my self an things I enjoyed either... I knew how to survive.

The thought of having a bio child with him always scared tf outta me. ALWAYS like would the baby get his toxic lying traits an anger issues? An so on.... But we seperated early march. Since then I found reasons to get out of the house when hes home.

& I found myself in the process.

I met someone who I thought could never exist. We like the same stuff, we see stuff the same way like we have so much fun together. With an without the kids. He's so calm mannered. Like we fell for each other pretty fast. When my ex has gotten mad an left me without basic stuff like water an stole my money. This guy has had back an i wasnt use to that at all. We take care of each other. An we met back in May. For once tho... I'm not scared to have another baby. I'd violently miscarried my last an been iffy since. But... If it happens w this guy... Honestly. I would be scared. I'd know he would have my back. Anyone else in a similar spot?