Clinical depressing w/ post parturm journey

Hello , my name is Melissah. 23 and 3 babies. I suffer from clinical depression. It has gotten worse since I wasn’t taking care of it i even dropped a lot of weight I’ve been through a lot , abusive relationship with my first child’s dad , sexual abuse , mental abuse , and etc ... I dropped weight over the years I’m 5’6 and was only weighing 99 pounds... I looked very sick and ill ... i got pregnant with my last child my son and really realized how my anxiety and clinical depression was getting worse (I was not on medication I chose not to be) ... when my son was born I made a decision to go on anti depressants (that you can breastfeed on) because I realized I need to take ahold of my life ! I have been threw a lot and I never loved myself of how I looked I found flaws and hated myself I’m currently slowly loving myself and I’m currently now almost 180 pounds ! I started going back to church and realizing I need to take time to care for me and my babies and sometime to my now husband it’s hard sometimes and I forget that I’m not perfect and I just need to slowly process stress and insecurities and make a plan to help myself fix them ... I just want you moms to know you can get over anything !! I’m here if anyone needs to talk or feel like they need someone to listen to them even though I look HORRIBLE in this picture here is me at church and reason why I show this picture because I realized something !!! “A SMILE CAN SAVE A LIFE” you never know what someone is going through so showing them some kindness or smiling could LITERALLY save a life ❤️