What would you do? I’m lost & broken.. please help.

Hi!

Let me tell everyone a little sad story...

I met this guy at work, we hit it off.

We became really close, we knew a lot of personal stuff of each other.

He wasn’t ready for a relationship yet because he came out of a shitty relationship that had a lot of impact to his life.

But for almost a year straight I was at his house every weekend sometimes even for 3 or 4 days straight. I always could go to him if I had something going on. We were building something.

7 months in whatever we had I ended up pregnant but unfortunately miscarried. I’m 19, pretty young and even though a miscarriage impacts everyone ofcourse!! I ended up with depression, anemia and lost 10kg ( 22pounds ) I was 130 pounds but ended up to be around 108 in just 3 months.

When I miscarried he told me these exact words “don’t worry, you will carry my baby one day, we are going to try again”

Mind you, this pregnancy wasn’t planned because I take the pill but it went wrong. But I personally would never do a abortus and do everything to give my baby a amazing life as much as I can.

It’s a blessing to have kids.

Fast forward:

This guy is 9 years older than me. And starting his own business. He told me 3 weeks after my miscarriage “let’s just wait with the baby making till we are both stable” I agreed and took the pill again.

Well the past 2 months are really bad between us, first of all we are still not in a relationship and second.. I’m pregnant again and I don’t know how it’s possible but it happens. when I did a sonogram the doctor was not even sure if she saw 2!?

I was in shock. I’m now almost 8 weeks, so I’m waiting for my first sonogram to maybe find out if I have twins.

It’s a blessing but things between me and him aren’t that good.

First he reacted really mad and thought I did it on purpose (I swear to god I wouldn’t ever do something so evil)

Then he suddenly switched and cried and told me he is thankful that I’m in his life and I’m carrying his baby(s).

Now I got to work today and my colleague told me she saw him kissing with another girl that he trains (we are both personal trainers) I was in shock, and my heart dropped. Immediately I send him a message, he was getting mad at me??? But even though we are not in a official relationship i have the right to know what’s going on right...? I’m carrying his baby..

So then he came to my work and took me apart and he again told me I have no right to ask that and he can even f***ck anyone he wants. Then proceeded to tell me it’s his ex girlfriend he kissed but he still doesn’t want a relationship with Anyone and wants the best for the baby(s) and me. I was so heart broken, I cried so much.

I never felt something like this for a man that’s this stupid!!! And this is the father of my future baby(s)??? I feel so dumb but he manipulated me by saying things like

“Later if we live together....” or “I want you to meet my dad” or “you are going to carry my babies sooner or later”.

How can he say I don’t have the right to ask him anything??? After all the things i did for him and we been through.

I feel so alone, and broken.

How can a man that’s 28 act like this.

What would you do? Give him no rights to the babies or..? 😔💔