Help Mummies!

As of today, I'm 9 weeks pregnant. Fighting H.G hasn't been easy for me. I'm so tired, sick and I absolutely could not think of any favourite food that I'd love to eat. I feel like those food I put in my mouth is just to survive. This is my second pregnancies, the first one ended with a missed MC. My morning sickness with my first wasn't as bad. With this one, I get sick with food easily. I can't really repeat the food I once find easier to swallow. The thought of food also makes me Gag. I can tolerate slice of lemon in my drinking water. However too much of it or too sour it will give me gastritis. First pregnancy already giving me the idea of having the next one is almost impossible. I can't find the beauty of it since everyday is like fighting a war with myself. When it hits me too hard, ill cry to myself not having anybody to help me. I won't ask for help because I don't want to appear to be weak and people might start criticising me(because they didn't have it as hard as I do and they won't understand).

I find it so hard to cope because I even have to wake up even in the night at least 4 to 5 times a night just to fill my empty stomach. It won't allow me to sleep through peaceful despite with vitamin B6 pill that comes with something like unisom that causes drowsiness. Yes, it makes me super drowsy but I don't get to sleep because of my body that needs to be fed almost every 2 hourly. How to keep myself sane? How to not be depress? 😭

My morning sickness started right on the dot at 6 weeks. 3 weeks had gone, I've been feeling so ill for as long as I can remember, so much so I dont even know if I can get my normal self back again. I miss my old self. The healthy happy me who can just eat about anything. I'm so sad and miserable mamas..