Me, my bf and his porn

So let's start out that I've been dating this man for 2 years now. And this is the 3rd time I've posted about his porn.

Relationship details. To put it simple when we first met the sex was amazeballz like came without clit touching which was a first for me. Well the last year and a half our sex life went down the tube. Im lucky to come at least once every 3 to 6 months and im lucky to have sex atleast once a month(knowing that high possibility that I won't enjoy wat so ever). Now its mainly cause he use to be a fast cummer and then he would get super hard again no problem. Well now he can't get hard again. So now he just finishes fast and I dont even have time to get into properly.

Now the porn part. I love porn I think its awesome. I'm alright with watching porn as long as we're both sexually happy and we don't choose porn over the other person. Now issue here is he watched alot. Mainly when I was asleep in bed with him right next me which is upsetting. Like wake me with a surprise dick down...anyway I have told him 3 times through this time issue that I rather him not watch porn until our sex life is ok cause its taking time out of when we can have sex. Well I just found out for the 4th time he is going behind my back and doing it again. Now I have stopped watching porn and I have stopped touching myself in the hopes that wen we do it ill be more sensitive and hopefully finish. Its just i feel like shit that he has to do this behind my back. And don't gey me started on what he is into on pornhub. Its not gross but it does make me feel well horrible about myself and not good enough. We have tried toys but like i said he gets in 2-3 strokes and is out. He is also not very playful either he us deff on the simple side of sex. Like I at this point dont even want to have sex anymore cause I hate myself. I dont know what to do....