Massage Therapist Fantasy

So, I managed to pinpoint why I was so captivated by the male massage therapist I went to a few weeks ago. Psychologically speaking, I think it is because my love language is ‘physical touch’ and I have not been getting enough of that from my own relationship in order to feel fulfilled.

I had already communicated and discussed my love language with my SO a number of times in the past, at least a year ago, but it is difficult for him to understand that the act of physical touch makes me feel complete and loved. He says he understands but I never see him even try.

I don’t know. At least I figured out why I felt connected to that male massage therapist. I know the therapist did not intend to leave me feeling an attraction or connection to him. He was just doing his job, rubbing his hands and arms over my back to fix my knots and pain from overworking myself, and nothing more than a professional massage.

Well, before sex yesterday, I suggested to my boyfriend that he and I to give each other sensual massages to help get one another in the mood for sex, but he did not want to do that and preferred to just go straight to sex.

If my SO is not supportive of my love language of physical touch, what am I supposed to do now? :/