I am tired

I’m tired of all of this. I’m tired of tracking, I’m tired of testing, I’m tired of hoping. I’m, sorry to say this, tired of seeing literally everyone pregnant these days. Why can’t I “fall” pregnant??? Why can’t I stop using birth control and accidentally get pregnant? I’m just tired. Mentally, physically, and emotionally.

I do not like the feeling of being envious of a mother, or an expectant mother to be. I shouldn’t feel this way, but I do.

Been trying to conceive for over 1 year, with two miscarriages. I’m just. Tired.

I needed to say this to someone, because I don’t have anyone to talk this out with otherwise, who understands. Thank you for being there, stranger.