Time Wasted

All the tests,scans , drs, tests both in hospitals , drs office and home..all the worries and energy we focus onto TTC , wishing and praying , our meltdowns and stuck in our head time, comparing ourselves to everyone else and the self loathing and jealousy...my goodness the time we lose and miss out on its crazy! This month I'll be focused on the literal now and present...I don't have much time left to TTC and spending it doing the same self beatdown cycle isnt happening if i can stop it!!