Looking back on the loss

This is what made me almost 100% back out of fostering ever again.

I want to re-explain everything because I had some people telling me how the kitty flu would be treated and I want to assure you, the vet did everything and they all still died. Oh my god, I mean I felt like there was literally nothing else me or the vet could do. 3 different types of antibiotics, steriods, IV fluids and fluid injections, syringe feeding, nebulizer treatments, and so on.

I even had them in an incubator y’all.

I stayed up for three days with them, trying to keep them alive. I was so devastated when the last one died that I performed CPR on a kitten and succeeded and then it died again. I was out of my mind.

I could not bring myself to cremate the last one. I buried him in a wooden box.

I haven’t been able to look at the pictures of them. Like y’all it freaking devastated me. It didn’t help that the day i got them my baby cousin suddenly died so I was grieving while caring for them. Here’s looking back on these babies. And now that I am, I am realizing that they seemed kinda weak from day one. The kittens i have now have been stronger and more alive so to speak since the day they were born. I have never had babies, like none of my pets ever had babies this was my first time so I didn’t have anything to compare it to. so I wonder if it was a thing that would have happened no matter what.

Adding pictures in a moment, theyre too far back on the camera roll.

And for happy feels here are the new babies

They are perfectly healthy. They’ve already been to the vet a few times because after my last experience I am paranoid and she tells me how perfect they are about 10 times everytime I see her. Not even a flea in sight