Birth control. Help me make a decision.

What are your thoughts on birth control?

I’ve never been on any BC. It took me three years to even get pregnant with my first baby, who was born on August 30th, 2020 (so not that long ago). But now that she is here, I’ve been considering it. Even though, I always told myself I would not get it.

I want to just do the pull out method and track my cycle, but I feel like that won’t be enough and is way too risky. I just think this will be my one and only child because being a mother is super fucking hard and has fucked with my mental health. Even with just one baby, I’m seriously doubting about having another kid in my life.

My thing is that I’ve heard nothing but horror stories about BC. The god awful side effects. My period has always been so good. Bleed for 3 days and I never cramped. Seriously, not one cramp that I can remember. And I just don’t want BC to fuck that up and make my periods worse.

Also, I have high blood pressure, and I am currently still going through postpartum hypertension 5 weeks out. So, I don’t want any hormonal BC cause it will possibly make my blood pressure worse.

So, that leaves me with Paragard (the copper IUD that is non-hormonal). I realize it could make my periods heavier and with more cramps up to 6 months, but it should go back to normal by then (according to my research on the internet).

I’m just so scared to take BC. But I’m also scared to have another baby. I just can’t. I’m conflicted. Please, any information and your own experience might help me make a choice.