Finding it hard to be happy about my pregnancy

I am almost 9w. We planned this pregnancy, but I’m finding it extremely difficult to be happy about it. I have this overwhelming fear that something bad is going to happen. I’ve been stressed, depressed and anxious a lot. I’ve had some pretty bad morning sickness as well and so on top of feeling unwell, emotionally, I’m unwell physically too. It’s gotten so bad that I’ve thought about harming myself, even considered termination, just from wanting to have it be over with because I fear its going to end anyways. Kinda like just sick of waiting for the other shoe to drop.

I know 99% of this is all in my head. I already have mental illnesses and currently seeing a therapist. I told her today how I feel and she said she wants to keep a closer eye on me, and that maybe I should reach out and see if anyone else shared similar experiences and see what helped them.

Any suggestions?