Done with it all

I love you so much but I can’t have a boyfriend I can’t talk to. I’m so tired of dealing with everything alone. I can’t do this anymore. I don’t wanna do this anymore. I wanna pack all my shit amd leave. I’m so fucking tired but I have nowhere to go. I called off today and think I’m gonna leave but I’d have to go to a homeless shelter and that’s gonna be so hard. I want you forever but I’m so tired of you not caring about my feelings and lying to me. I have no one else to turn to and you know that. I honestly have lost any will to live and I am so beyond tired of fighting for ne one. My family doesn’t try to have a relationship. I lost all my friends. Idk what to do anymore. I’m so beyond lost