my grandma doesn’t speak to me

so this comes and goes but when it bothers me, it really bothers me. my grandma and i hardly speak anymore. and the only time she reaches out to me is if it has something to do with my student loan she co-signed for. i’ve called her a few times but then i never hear from her again. then, my mom will invite her over and we hardly talk.

i feel guilty but then again, the phone works both ways. she always says she is glad i call but she never tries to get ahold of me...

i have very conflicting feelings of guilt and then “if she cared to talk to me, she could also reach out.”