10 days PP

My daughter came 11 days early and I had to had have an unexpected csection. It was one of the most scariest things I’ve ever experienced. I labored are home for over 24 hours because we couldn’t go to the hospital till I was 5 minutes apart.

Yesterday and today I have been feeling the hormone crash. DH’s mom was supposed to come into town last Sunday to help while I recovered but she put off going to the doctor for a UTI for a month and it turned into a kidney infection. So I’ve been trying to recover and take care of our LO. I just wish I wasn’t alone during the day. I miss seeing people. No one wants to come over during the day. No one has offered any help. 2020 has been a year filled hardships and I feel like they’re hitting me all over again the past two days. I felt the bond with little girl but today I’m so drained that I don’t feel it as much. Is this normal?

I see my doctor on Monday for my post op check. I’m gonna tell her how I’ve been feeling. I’m just down. No bad thoughts or anything like that! Just baby blues.