This was me 2 months postpartum with my firstborn. I snapped back in only 2 months and still was ashamed of my body. My firstborn was such an easy pregnancy, I had energy throughout the whole thing, and he was so nice to me while I carried him.

This is me now. 34+2 with babygirl. I’m at high risk for preterm labor so my OBGYN put me on bedrest until she comes. On top of that, the beginning of my second trimester I was put on Olanzapine for a handful of reasons and one of the major side effects is weight gain. And boy do I see it. I put weight on so so quickly with baby girl, going from 150 PP to 224 at 34 weeks (that’s over 70 fucking pounds!!!!) is absolutely crushing and not being able to do anything about it right now is just killing me. I tried to change my diet to manage the weight gain but nothing was working, and then I had a false labor scare and then now on bedrest. I feel defeated. I feel like it takes so much time away from me showing my baby boy the love and attention he deserves. I feel awful 24/7 and I need help with literally everything. I’m not asking for any pity or anything, just wanna share what I’m dealing with so that other mamas that feel alone know that they’re not and for my own sake of not feeling alone.

I still love my body because I am privileged enough to be able to grow a human and do such a wonderful thing that not everyone can. But holy cow, being this heavy is so difficult and I’ve been feeling so excited for her to come, not only to have my babygirl in the world but honestly, I NEED TO HIT THE GYM.

I’m excited to share my journey post partum as well!! I love seeing people post about their weight loss after giving birth and hopefully mine with succeed!! :)