First big argument.. I am stressed and sad

Yesterday was one of the worst days for me in a long time. There was like 3 different things from different aspects of my life that just went completely left (family falling ill, school..). I’ve been dating this guy for about 4months.

We have had small bickering sessions.. by which he said I had to be more transparent and open with my feelings, which is really tough for me sometimes because of things I’ve been through. Almost everything else with us is what i wanted in a relationship. He’s sweet, kind, and he listens to me. He shows up. I have personal things that are coming out of the closet now and have recently began to stress me. In my early 20s, I’ve been coming face to face with traumas and new emotions that I’m feeling right now. We talked a little about this before.... it’s something I’m working on.

Back to yesterday, really stressful day, he asked me to go to the movies, which I thought this would be a date to help relieve my stress, but he picked the movie and I sat thru it with a headache bc I had been crying all morning. The entire afternoon I spent with him involved a lot of me bending my back to cater to him, to make a long story short.

I have this history of doing this to guys..and people in general—I always take care of other people even when I’m weak myself. I was so so tired and exhausted, hopeless and all that yesterday. And I still found a way to help him stretch after his workout and wait till he was done working out to eat. I don’t know if he realized how bad of a day i had.

He asked me about what was wrong and gave me some advice that he lives by. And I guess he thought things were fine. I just didn’t feel like talking about the issue when we discussed what was wrong.

We go to sleep and when he wakes up in the morning I was already up and thinking about some things. I told him his alarm went off but was kinda giving a cold shoulder because I was thinking about the day before. And he left and said “see ya” as we was through the door. That was it.

I was really hurt because he left. I had done a lot for him during a stressful time and I felt like he wasn’t being gentle with me, like I would for him. I texted him and said “You wanna be a dick and leave like that? Don’t come back then.” And he just liked the message.

I don’t know what’s going to happen. I like him a lot but I felt hurt that he wasn’t there for me.. and that he could leave me the way he did. We’d discussed leaving without saying bye/being upset before. I don’t know what to do ☹️