39 weeks 1 day and in painnn

Iv struggled bad with hemorrhoids since my first pregnancy 6 yrs ago 3 babys later and I'm 39wks with number 4 and I'm soooo ready to get back to normal but soooooo scared of pushing while hemorrhoids are hanging out BADDDD

. The tub isnt helping hydrocortisone isnt helping they are HUGE it's scary to look or feel