What now

Yall i have no one...not one single person as an outlet. I feel like I'm going to burst and im just overwhelmed with depression. I'm not a good mom and I'm not a good fiancée actually just ended my relationship today but still living in the home bc I have nowhere to go no money.... also quit my job today. I need a therapist more than ever no money no insurance. I'm in crisis mode. I feel myself sinking back into a deep dark hole all over again but terrified bc what if I don't make it back out this time