ALWAYS THROWING SHIT IN MY FACE !!!🤬🤬🤬

Since I’ve been with my bf for almost damn near really a year now he has bought me a pair of shoes couple jewelry. Couple clothes. But has taken me out to every restaurant. Got me on his insurance. I got into a wreck. You know how that goes.. anyways it’s like idk since I been with him I’ve lost my independence & I feel like I can’t do shit for myself anymore. Every time we get into it he throws everything he does for me in my face. I don’t ask him for whit tho. He does it all!! But man I swear to y’all literally everyday & I mean everrrydayyg he telling me what he did for me like I wasn’t there & like I didn’t thank him. He had 4 kids from previous relationship & I moved in w him but he tells me that I don’t do shit for him to thank me. He always wants to have sex ALL THE TIME ITS SICKENING! He gets soooo mad if I don’t want too. I will wake up & he is literally having sex w me & it’s kind of weird to me !!! We were arguing one time & he was telling his kids “ SHE DONT DO THAT TO THE NIGGA THAT RAPED HER THOUGH” my cousin heard him & all like why would you say that about me to your children ? I’ve never met someone who is so controlling & abusive & mean & always throwing things in my face bringing me down . What do I do 😭😭 I’m so scared to leave cs now he has me feeling like I need him!