Upset

Hello everyone

I basically am posting just to vent because I know nobody can force anybody to do anything.

Anyway I have really low moments as I feel my marriage isn't the best it can be and it's not myself that's lacking. I've tried to talk to him, he ignores or spaces out. I've tried to suggest therapy and he refuses. I feel so ungrateful sometimes because at least he hasn't cheated, abandoned or hit me. But I know in my heart I'm being held back, I had hopes and dreams for us. Him? Idk. He's very confusing yet clear at the same time. Its frustrating and depressing for me to keep up this run around or to act like nothing is wrong...

Thank you for reading, I'm just at my wits with this and I have my good and bad moments about our relationship. I'm all for divorce but then I feel so upset for my son 💔 so I just tough it out for now 😔