Losing my dream birth....

So many things have gone wrong this pregnancy. I wanted to have a home natural birth with my midwife . Many people already didn't think I should because of my small size. I knew I could prove them wrong, but things have gotten worse. I have a thing called vasa previa. Very rare, very serious. Now not only will I have to give birth in a hospital. I may have to give birth prematurely by a c-section. The vessles that run through the membrane could rupture, which could kill my baby. Thats why she may have to be delivered prematurely through c-section. I'm so scared.... and sad all at the same time. I'm trying not to grieve not having the birh I want and just worry about my baby's health because that's all that matters.