I failed my 1 hour

I’m 8 weeks. I hadn’t eaten since the morning the day of the glucose test around 9. Didn’t eat or drink anything all day and had my blood drawn at 5pm. My level was at 200 :( I never had this with my previous pregnancies. I’m so upset with myself. I never lost the weight I gained from my second pregnancy. With my first I gained 40 lbs and lost 60 lbs after. With my second I gained 60 lbs and lost nothing. I’m devastated that I did this to myself.