Does this sound like depression

Before you all come flocking in with your pointless comments telling me to go to the doctor I am doing I’m just asking on here for advice off people who have been diagnosed with depression to see if I have similar symptoms.

For the last few months I have hated everything and everyone like literally hate them I can’t stand to be near anyone just them breathing gets on my nerves and I feel like I could snap at any minute. People try to do nice things for me such as the other day I said I was going to make coffee but someone else made it for me deep inside I was grateful but I couldnt stop myself exploding and shouting at them and I don’t know why I said some horrible things to them and tipped my coffee down the sink it was like I couldn’t control it. I’m always miserable nothing makes me happy I just sit in my room all day doing nothing accept when I go to work but recently I’ve been calling in sick a lot because I don’t have the energy or motivation to go I feel like I would rather die than go. I also keep getting a lot of thoughts of suicide and I’ve been trying to starve myself and find ways to cause harm to myself. I also feel like I have become numb to anything no matter what happens to me or anyone it just doesn’t bother me. Someone I know died and I was really close to them it should of affected me but it didn’t I didn’t even cry or feel a single amount of sadness I just walked away from the person that told me and went back to my room. I don’t know what is wrong with me. I also keep forgetting everything and putting things in strange places