OPKs are FINALLY getting darker!!

I’m breastfeeding an 11 mo. I usually discontinue breastfeeding at a year and get my bleeding back a few weeks after... but I usually don’t ovulate before the first one or two bleedings. But this time, my opks are FINALLY getting darker! I’ve been temp and opk tracking for over a month... and I thought hcg negatives were disheartening in a row!! But wow... these repeated negative OPKs are really hard too aren’t they? I feel like less of a woman for some reason 🤷‍♀️

I know, my youngest is still quite young. But I just found out I have hashimotos (sp?) so I don’t know how much longer we will be able to have more kids. It probably will get harder within the next year... so I feel a time cramp. And my other kids are all 22 months apart give or take a week or two... so a months difference isn’t really going to make a difference as far as what I’m used to. This may be my month! I pray!