Feels like my child’s father hates me..!

*LENGTHY POST *

My bd is the ex of one of my cousins (grandads side) that I was once close with. Me & this cousin, I’ll call her Lee, we’re close for a about a couple years. I started noticing things within our friendship; she started acting jealous, only called me when it was time to fight, & always thought she looked better than me & would try to one up me. I knew her ex well because she was dating him while I was dating my ex. He was toxic to her. He came on her bday trip with us & he was in & out of her life for about 3-4 years (while her & I were still cool). So in January of 2018, him & I began messing around. I didn’t feel any kind of way at first because I knew I wasn’t friends with my cousin anymore. That same year both of its left for different HBCU’s in Georgia. Him & I continued to mess around in 2019 & this year & I ended up pregnant at the end if May. I brought up how was it going to look especially with Lee if she found out, despite us rarely talking anymore I knew that she would feel a way if she found out I was pregnant by her ex. He pretty much told me that he wasn’t going to come around again till he knows that the baby is. So we haven’t talked my whole pregnancy & I’m 29 weeks currently, 7.5 months. I tried reaching out to him since it’s been so long & explained that I knew the baby was his & even showed him my sons 3D ultrasound & you could see the resemblance. He told me that he hasn’t thought about me at all, & doesn’t like the fact that I find him on “every social media” which isn’t true. I only added him Twitter & decided to dm to talk when followed me back.

I have so much support from my family & friends but I feel like he hates him. In the beginning he jokingly told me that he thought I was trying to “trap” him..??? Like wtf??

I know my story is just one of many but when he completely dismissed me tonight I just felt so depressed & heart broken. I can’t think straight & my baby boy deserves his dad. The ex already has a daughter who is 5-6..

Any encouraging words? Or kind advice?