Two weeks ago I had a strong positive but baby quit growing. It hurts to see a negative today. And idk why I decided to test. Maybe bc I was hoping the baby held on through out all of my bleeding and maybe the baby wanted to keep growing.

My husband doesn’t want to try for another anytime soon. This baby was unplanned but so fucking loved. I hurt. I feel guilty. I cry. I scream. And he doesn’t understand why I am so hurt. I was so excited for another baby. It’s so hard for me to carry and my worst fear came true.

I feel empty. I feel alone. I feel like I lost my place.

I hurt.