18 weeks pregnant and a little nervous...

I’ve read it’s normal not to feel movement during this time however I just thought pregnancy would be a lot different. I haven’t gained much weight, I look a little chunky in the face rather than pregnant. I thought my belly would be round and proud.... I could use all the positive affirmations during this time. I started taking prenatal in my second trimester and was even drinking wine in my first( didn’t know I was pregnant). Is this normal or am I making myself feel guilty? Ladies can you relate????