hemorrhoids at a young age

so i’ve had hemorrhoids i’ll say since like freshman year and now ima junior.

but i’m actually really scared because i don’t know anybody who’s had hemorrhoids at this age for literally

years.

that’s literally the biggest insecurity i have.

i’m still a virgin. and i’ve always been thinking sex.

but the hemorrhoids is what’s stopping me to lose my virginity because i know now a days guys love doggy style and i would be so embarrassed to say no doggy style and i wouldn’t want them to get turned off or even ask why.

i think about my hemorrhoids everyday just cause i do get butthole cramps a lot and i know it’s because of the hemorrhoids. and like barely last year i just found out they can cause cancer.

and also i just really wanna lose my virginity like i know i’ve been ready for a long time but it’s the hemorrhoids that are stopping me .

i’m also very embarrassed to tell my mom so she can take me to a doctor for it. and i’m also embarrassed for the doctor to know because i know that hemorrhoids are very common but i don’t think having them at 14 is common :/

i really don’t know what to do but i really just want them removed as soon as possible

and i don’t think fiber or exercise or water can help them go away because i’ve had them for years already. i think if that was the case i wouldn’t even have them anymore

someone please help. i need advice