Trisomy 18

I got my results back from my regularly ordered screenings... I learned not only am I a carrier of cystic fibrosis but the screening indicates a 1 in 12 chance the little one has trisomy of the 18th chromosome and I am lost. I go on Monday for more tests but the results are expected to take 7 to 10 business days and with the holidays being the end of next week I may not find out until after Christmas. For anyone who doesn't know trisomy 18 is almost always fatal and should we make it to live birth the average lifd expectancy is about 2 weeks. I had a missage at 9 weeks last summer and i thought i was in the clear having made it into the second trimester. To lose two babies is as many years would absolutely devastate me. It took me almost a year to even be able to talk about the miscarriage and if this one doesn't make it I will completely lose my mind. The heartbreak might literally kill me. And the not knowing is almost as bad. Does anyone have any advice or words of wisdom other than just "hope for the best" and "say your prays" because although everyone saying that means well... I doesn't help me feel better or relieve even a bit of the anxiety.