Feels like I'll never find someone

I'm HIV positive and I genuinely feel like I will never find anyone. I'm honest with people right away and that has gotten me blocked. Not every guy is rude about it. I've had people let me down gently. Some get really mean and call me bad things. I get that I put myself in the situation to get HIV. Just sucks because I feel I will be alone forever. My sister told me since I take medication for it and can't pass it maybe I should just keep it to myself. I would never do that because God forbid something happen with medication and I ended up passing it. I would feel horrible and could go to jail. I know I have a legal obligation to disclose it with who I sleep with.... I will always do that... Just feels like I should get used to being alone...