Nervous 😩

I’m 8+3 today, and my next OB appointment isn’t until 10+6. I saw baby at 7+1, everything looked good, but I’m really nervous still. I had a MMC earlier this year and I’m terrified of going back to find out baby stopped growing and no longer has a HB.

I also made my appointment with Maternal and Fetal medicine. I have to have a phone appointment with a genetic counselor since I’m 37. My NT scan is 2 days later (which my fiancé isn’t allowed to come to). That got me really nervous thinking about the chromosomal issues baby is at risk for. I am more nervous now than I was before my first scan. This next few weeks will hopefully fly by because of the holidays.

We were going to tell our families around Christmas but now I’m nervous to until my appointments after the new year. Its like I don’t want to jinx it. I need to take a chill pill !