I can't get my self to take this test!

Update!!!! In the comments!

We've been TTC for over 5 years with 2 MMC and one chemical. I was doing the typical opk everyday due to PCOS my cycles would sometimes last 35-52 days hence doing it everyday. Countless negatives. A little over a year ago I started taking a fertility aid vitamin and it got my cycles under 35 days every time even after I stopped taking them back in March when we went into lock down and my hubby wasn't working. Fast forward to now I didn't do opks this cycle and just kind of relaxed. I'm now 15 days late which hasn't happened since May 2019. Around when af was supposed to show my breasts were extremely sore and my cervix was low but soft which usually is more and hard. Small cramps every other day or so and now my cervix is so high I can barely find it 😳

Long story short I'm terrified to take the test I bought 10 days ago. I just need to rant and I don't want to get my hubby's hopes up. Need some baby dust and words of encouragement please!