Husband is a jerk

My Christmas truly sucked except for the one thing that I loved watching my LO face on Christmas morning. That was the best part.

The reason my Christmas sucked is because my husband came home from his traveling for work trip last week on a Tuesday and told me Wednesday he wants to quit. Kept calling his boss, he met with him Christmas eve, and the conversation was left open- wide open - like what is going to happen . He says he wants to quit because he doesn’t like being away from our LO and me. He also hates his new manager too. Not originally what he signed up for - and was just thrown into it.

Fast forward to Christmas Day, I smile so hard because my 3 yr old daughter enjoyed her Christmas. I got daddy a few things, and he got me nothing. Not one thing. He says to me Christmas, oh let’s just go online and order something for you.

That’s not the point. Where is the thought!?!

His mom was the one person who sent me something and it was a box of chocolates.

Fast forward to today, Sunday, the uncertainty of whether he has quit, what his boss said etc is still looming.

It stresses me out, but me dare have an opinion, watch out.

Until late this afternoon he finally goes to his bosses house and they are going to give it a few more months. Okay great, he still had a job, fantastic. From Wednesday to today, he said to me numerous times, I’m done, I don’t want to do it anymore. The job that is. It’s a new branch of a company he’s worked with for 20+ years. He travels 2-4 days a week 3-4 times a month.

I’m home alone, no family around, not even in the same country. I work full time too, while she is daycare. But I do what I have to do.

Anyways, he asks why I’m on edge and why I’m just not happy and I don’t support him. Why I snip at him? Why I get frustrated when he asks ridiculously stupid things.

He is super lazy I feel, but paints a different picture to everyone else.

I just said something to him and yes I did say it in a snippy tone as I had just called for him four times while I was bathing our LO, and he said something that I never thought he would say to me and then he got up 5 mins after that and says, I fuckin hate you.

Oh and yea, tomorrow he is going out of the country to go on an all expenses paid surf trip with his friends.

Why does he not care about how his actions make me feel, or if I’m happy? Why can’t he swallow his own pride.

I don’t wish my life on anyone, not even my worst enemy.

I’m laying in bed crying while he’s in the living room watching tv. I know he won’t come in here an apologize, it’s usually me who has to break the ice.

I truly don’t know what real love is anymore. This can’t be how all men treat their woman. I am a good person, a good mom, a good wife.... what the fuck did I do to deserve to be treated like this.