Update: Caught my husband after Masterbating

So it’s January 1st and this is how my new year starts. We have been TTC and it’s my fertile week, app says I should be ovulating tomorrow and my husband knows. We don’t have sex as often as I’d like but we do when I tell him it’s my fertile week and sporadically we do it other weeks. Anyway, so a few days again we had an argument over stupid wife husband crap and it took him 3 days to get over it and then we were fine. But I didn’t push to have sex cause he refused the last time I asked 5 days ago cause he was upset still. Anyway, he knows I’ve been wanting to have sex cause it’s my fertile week and now it’s nearly over. He always tells me to tell him when it’s my fertile week in advance. Last night New Year’s eve I wanted to have sex but he said he was too buzzed which he was. Anyway this morning when our son woke up, I brought my son downstairs to feed him breakfast and start the day and knew my husband was tired and figured I’d let him sleep in (especially cause I wanted him rested so we could TTC today). But when I was taking our son upstairs to change his diaper, my husband comes out of our bedroom and heaps his towel and goes to the bathroom to shower. He shouts that I can bring our son in so he can give him a bath too but I didn’t hear him clearly and walked into the bathroom as my husband was getting in the shower and see his penis dripping (ya gross I know) and i say “did you” and my husband says “ya”. So I shut the door and my heart sunk.

We didn’t have sex at all this week and I’m due to ovulate any time now. I’m pissed, yes, and not sure how to handle it cause I still want to try today. But on the other hand he now already ejaculated so now he doesn’t have any mature sperm and he has a motility issue so sex everyday isn’t best for his swimmers.

Also I go see his phone is on charge and battery is dead so I figure he was obviously watching porn.

My heart is sunken and I’m so pissed and just feel like crying cause there goes another month of not getting pregnant.

What do I do girls? He is in the shower and I’m just so lost and don’t want to fight over sex but I’m just so sad.

I don’t know what I’m more upset over: him refusing to have sex when I asked knowing it’s my fertile week days ago; him saying no for sex last night and then master-bating this morning; him watching porn; him comfy in bed masterbating watching porn while I’m downstairs taking care of our 2 year old; or the fact that he doesn’t initiate sex but is merrily master-bating on his own; or missing my fertile week to conceive because of his stupidly and another month of not getting pregnant. I really just feel like crying.

Help??!!!!?

Update: You all keep saying I need to back off and I’m in the wrong and I’m putting too much pressure on him. To clarify, he wants to have another kid. He tells me to tell him when I’m ovulating and when it’s fertile week. He doesn’t initiate sex, 90% of the time it’s me. I try to initiate sex other times as well, not just when it’s ovulation time but he usually doesn’t want to (he is tired, his back hurts, he has to be up early, he didn’t sleep well, etc). Also we have a 2 year old so sometimes it is hard to find time/energy to have sex regularly. And I am 35 years old with irregular cycles and he is 41. So we aren’t at our prime and it took us 3 years to conceive our son, hence we aren’t in an idea situation to get pregnant and every effort makes a difference.