Why can’t it be a challenge

Why couldn’t it have been a challenge to get pregnant a second time?

Why did it have to be me? My first isn’t even one yet. Before people come at me saying should’ve used condoms or get on birth control. My birth control was for if I was exclusively breastfeeding and I had stopped breastfeeding so I called my doctor to get a different one. They told me to test before coming into the office. I wasn’t able to get a test until my partner got paid. I was getting negatives for the past weeks then when I got a different test it was positive so I took the whole box of tests.

Then I read these stories on hear how some have been trying for a long time and I feel so bad. It makes me wish it had taken longer and that someone else got the baby they’ve been waiting for.

I don’t know how I’ll be able to handle two kids under two. I’m mentally exhausted with one. My partner works so we have a stable life so it’s just me at home with our son.

With covid still around it’s harder to connect with other moms to hang out or even talk to in person just to get out the house.

I’m scared and I feel like I don’t got this at all. Like I’m way over my head.

Thanks for reading my rant

Edit:

There was a birth control my ob gave me to take while breastfeeding only and she said when I stop breastfeeding then the birth control I was on would not longer be effective and will have to switch to a different one. Since I had to switch my son to formula the birth control I had was no longer effective so I had to call to switch it to a different one.