Haven’t gotten a single ultrasound entire 1st trimester

My first appointment they said it was too early and sent me home. My 12 week appointment just got canceled a few minutes ago cause their tech is out all week and said she won’t be available until February. I’ll already be in 2nd trimester by then. They said they’ll have someone call me back.. just really annoyed and sad.. every time I think I’m going to finally see the baby something happens.. just wanted to rant a little . 😔