I’m too much of a giver🤷‍♀️

My new boyfriend wants to eat me out and I’m afraid I’ll taste bad. I’ve also never orgasmed before. I don’t want to take long because I don’t even know what I’m supposed to feel.

I’m usually a very giving person in my sex life and kinda get off on watching my partner finish. It makes me feel proud. But when they try to do anything for me like fingering I feel like I need to cum to make them feel good and my anxiety about making them feel good about themselves gets the best of me.

Does anyone else have this problem? And if so what do you do to focus on yourself and your needs?

Also if you have any tips on how to freshen up your vagina I’d love to hear it.