Second baby

So, I’m really anxious to have another baby. Our first was an accident and I really feel like that helped shape who I am. I have been hyper-focused on having another one and trying to do all the research and prep I can to make sure our bodies are prepared to make a second child. My husband says I am going over board and obsessing. I can see that but tonight it turned into a big fight and now, I’m thinking maybe we’re not ready. I guess I’m just writing this to vent, but I’m feeling pretty upset and discouraged. Maybe we shouldn’t bring another baby into this type of situation.