So here's a backstory. I have a 2 year old son. When he was 9 months and 13 months, I had chemical pregnancies both times.

After that I started to get jealous. And this was only within the firat few months too. It just got worse. I would get so jealous and obsessed with conceiving again that I didn't focus on what was going on around me.

And slowly those feelings started to fade as time went on. But now, it's been about a year since my last CP and now those feelings are coming back again as more and more people around me are finding out they are expecting. And I've even blocked notifications and try to stay off my apps but this feeling just keeps nagging me.

Does the feeling of numbness and emptiness ever truly go away? Or do you just learn to live with it??