Raped

about a year ago a good friend of mine came over. he kept trying to get in my pants and I kept telling him no and pushing his hand away. he pressured me into sex and the whole time I was waiting for it to be over. after wards I cried so hard. it happened again on another day. Was I raped? I feel like I let it happen and it happened twice so I can’t say I was raped. I just need some answers