Just needing to vent and maybe get some advice that I’m not the shittest human being on this planet, because I feel like it.

I’m getting married in a few weeks and I’ve already had one bridesmaid tell me a few months ago that she no longer wanted to attend and be a BM due to the fact that we don’t see each other enough or she doesn’t feel close enough to me to be there on my special day. Today I had my BEST FRIEND msg and tell me she also no longer wants to attend my wedding for the same reason?? She blocked me before I could msg her back.

I just don’t understand people. I don’t think I am or have done anything to push these people away. Yes I don’t see them as often as I would like but I have a 14 month old which occupies a lot of my time and neither of them have children so I feel like they don’t understand what it’s like once you have kids that you can’t just drop everything to go for a drink, dinner etc.

I’ve never felt so low and lost. I feel like people that I thought I was close with are dropping like flies, who will be next?

I’m at work and I’ve been in tears all morning. The amount of stress this has added to my life in so many ways now is insane, not to mention money I won’t be getting back for everything I have paid for especially for my BF since wedding is only a few weeks away.

Has anyone else ever been in a similar situation? Because I just feel ill. Like everything is my fault. I didn’t think I was but this has just put everything into perspective 😔

I feel like I have no one left except for my family.