Depression during first trimester

I feel like nobody talks about the intense depression the first trimester can bring on. I’m 9 weeks and every day is a struggle. I’m just in survival mode at this point. I always feel like 💩 so there’s no good days. My partner and I have been fighting because he doesn’t understand the emotional and physical toll this is taking on me. I’m so stressed out all the time thinking I’m going to miscarry. And being in lockdown makes things even worst! Here’s to hoping my second and third trimester can bring on a bit more joy and happiness 🥺