19 & pregnant

I recently found out I was pregnant, I’ve been struggling with what to do because of my age and surroundings. My boyfriend and I have been together for 6 months and I know what’s best for us and the baby would be to have an abortion seeing as we were not ready for financially stable. My issue comes with the fact that I know I could not emotionally handle having an abortion or putting the baby up for adoption. Although I know the best and unselfish thing to do would be to have an abortion. I’m really stuck because I know either way it’s a very difficult situation.