It's been a bit over 2 months me and the kids finally in a routine my oldest is slowly getting a little better and not stressing so much about not seeing dad

Have a restraining order on him do to him being on drugs

Found out today that hes living in his car

God knows it he taken his meds for hi bi polar or self medicating

His mom balling her eyes out about it him telling her I swear I'm sober you can test me every day if u want I cant live with out my kids.

She worried about his depression an him taken his life.

She think I should give him once a week supervised visitation.

He can get off drugs hes never stayed on the it's the fact he always go back when things gets hard or when he get depressed.

I seen him depressed when I was with him how low he gets very low he has told me me and the kids are better off with out him

He sorry hes a fuck up blah blah blah that he woulnt mind if he was dead but he to scared and wouldnt so that to the kids he said

Makes me wonder ik what I'm doing right for the kids

But if u like this I dont understand get help check ur self in dont think he will. Idk what to do of course I worry getting a call saying hes gone.