TTC SUCKS!! How are you?

How are you doing? TTC for 13 months now. Each month I cry when my period comes and have a day or two of pure self pity and then I build myself up and get excited because “this month will work” I get jealous and envious of others with baby announcements or births. Especially those married after me. I have babies being born in my family constantly right now. It’s hard however I have so much love in my life because of them and I just can’t wait to add to the cousins and little friends!

For me, I found distractions to be helpful. I still track ovulation and we try because to not try will never get me where I want to be and unfortunately my ovulation day isn’t consistent. But I distract myself with daily plans or projects or books or movies and work to allow something else to consume my life and mind. Everytime I think “I’ll never get pregnant” I cut myself off and instead say repeatedly “God will provide” because I’m working to put my full trust in God. However, this doesn’t mean we stop.

I pray we all meet our little babies soon. Just keep imagining yourself holding your child and loving on your baby. This is such a challenging thing to experience however when we have our baby, I think we will have such a different perspective and love for them because we’ve had to wait so long. I know the day will come for all of us.

God will provide.